An excerpt from The Diary of a Teenage Girlby Marielle Heller
(Minnie alone. Pacing.)
I think he’s going to cut things off with me. He’s getting more involved with my mother again. They seem to be going out more and more. I just can’t take it. What if they got married or even if they just moved in together? I don’t want him to be sleeping with us both at the same time if we’re living under one roof as a family. It sounds crazy, but what if he started sleeping with Gretel too?
You should only fuck people you love.(pause)
I wonder if I could ever fuck my own father?
I used to have dreams about my grandfather and me. We were both nude, but I’d look down, and there was nothing between his legs…
How does one become a prostitute? Like that girl in Taxi Driver?
(Music starts to play softly. Minnie playfully dances and acts out being a prostitute to the beat of the music)
Go down to Market Street ‘til you see a tall, thin black man with high-heel boots and a cape and a big hat and a diamond in his lapel, and you give him the eye?
(The picture of the pimp and Minnie starts to appear on the video screen)
I wonder if I’d be scared?
What if he was a cop?
It’s not often that someone just steps out of the blue and offers to be a whore.
What is one to do?
… and I want to be fucked so so badly. It just isn’t fair, life.